I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see and realise that I in fact have never made decision within my life – as all
my decisions have only ever been based on past experiences as memory – and never
a seeing in the moment what would be Best for All
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see and realise that I have never made a real decision within my life, as
within every moment of decision I draw on my past, past experience and memories
to tell me what to do – where I accepted and allowed my past to tell me, direct
me into a particular decision – and thus it was never a real decision as it was
already pre-determined based on my database of past experiences and memories
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see and realise that my decisions are based on personal likes and dislikes
as positive and negative energy annotations, based on past experiences and
memories – where within every moment of decision will base my decisions and
what route to talk on my personal likes and dislikes based on memory as past
events and experiences – and thus never actually practically deciding within
the moment within the starting point and context of what is Best for All
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
have defined myself according to personal likes and dislikes – and to believe
these to be real – while obviously they cannot be real if everyone has
different likes and dislikes and there is no uniformity or absoluteness in
anyway whatsoever, and thus I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see and realise that personal likes and dislikes can never be
what is Best for All as it only considers what is Best for Self as Character
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see and realise that I am in fact a pre-programmed organic robot, executing
and performing tasks based on my memory as all the inputs I’ve received
throughout my life and the inputs I placed in myself within back chat – and thus
any action, task, decision was never real but only ever based on past
experiences as memory
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see and realise that with every new step, with every new decision – I am not
in fact stepping forward, as I simply repeating and recycling my past within
myself where I take all I have ever done and all I have ever experienced and
run it through the equation of the decision I have to make in the present – and
thus all that can ever come from this decision is more of the same, more of the
past – and within that supporting and keeping myself as character in place
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to see and realise that I have ever only existed as characters, as different
sets of values as likes and dislikes – where I will move from one character to
another as the input/environment changes and within this I forgive myself that
I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that I have in fact
never lived but only lived as fragmented characters within separation of myself,
in constant fluctuation – instead of being here, stable, within every moment of
breath
When and as I see myself being faced with a decision, and
decide upon something – I stop and I breathe – I take a moment to evaluate how
I accepted and allowed myself to come to this decision and ask myself: what
variables were involved? What values were involved? Is this really what is best
for all or is it a decision based on personal likes and dislikes which in no
way whatsoever considers what is best for all? And within that I commit myself
to evaluate the decisions I have made and the decisions still to make to check
myself and my starting point within making decision and teach myself to make
decisions which are in fact best for all and not automated decision making
based on personal likes and dislikes
When and as I see myself shifting characters – I stop and I
breathe – I see and realise that I am not in fact here, present as breath
within every moment – but am allowing myself to be a program running in
automation mode where I will change and adapt myself according to the various
inputs coming from my environment and my self-taught outputs as a response to
these inputs – I see and realise that this is not in fact real living and thus
I stop and stick to breathing, here
Within that I commit myself to for myself identify all the
various characters I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create within my life to
deal with various situations, people – and to walk the process of Self Forgiveness and Self Correction pertaining these characters so I can merge all
the fragmented, separated parts back together here as me and transform myself
from being multiple disordered character to an actual living being Here
When and as I see myself making a decision based on personal
likes and dislikes as positive and negative energy, I stop and I breathe – I see
and realise that this is not real decision making but running an automated
program which is not reliable at all as it is only based on self-interest and
the survival of self as character and thus I do not accepted and allow myself
to go that route and re-direct myself to really look and see what requires to
be done within the moment which is in the Best interest of ALL
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