Day 52: Prelude – Don’t take anything for Granted

This Blog is a continuation to:
Day 51: Shocking Sounds

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created an idea about what is a ‘relevant point’ to work with and ‘what not’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created ideas/opinions/beliefs about points as reactions within myself in relation to my environment where I will judge the reaction/experience I am having as either ‘important’ / ‘not important’ and will accordingly either work or not work on it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created ideas/opinions/beliefs/judgments about points as reactions in relation to my environment based on what I think is ‘important’ / ‘not important’ based on whether I believe this point to be ‘interesting’ or ‘deep’ where if I find the point to not be something ‘insightful’ and apparently “extraordinary” – I will ignore it until I come across a point that I believe fits the category of ‘interesting’/’insightful’ and work with that instead

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have mind-fucked myself to such an extent that I have opinions about everything where I even have opinions about my points which are in itself opinions so it’s like having opinions about opinions which is completely bizarre

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be selective in terms of the points I want to work with based on judgment/ideas/opinions about the points I face throughout my day where if a point ‘stands out’ that I see/perceive as ‘interesting’ I will be motivated to take it on while if during my day I only face points which I deem as ‘ordinary’ / ‘dull’ I will convince myself that I have apparently ‘nothing to write about’ while there’s lots to write about since not a day goes by that I don’t react to something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the points I face throughout my day and only take those points on which I see/perceive as interesting – and within that I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that I’ve accepted and allowed to attach either positive or negative energy charges to points in terms of ‘interesting’ / ‘boring’ – which only reveals to me that I am still allowing myself to within working on myself within process – to still be directed within and as energy as negative/positive energy charges where I will follow the positive and ignore/dismiss the negative

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/understand/grasp the full extent of how completely biased we are within every single thing we do in our reality where literally not a single thing escapes our prejudiced eyes – where everything we see/do gets categorised/boxed within compartments of our minds for us to make apparent ‘sense’ of our reality while all the while only creating/manifesting an illusion of reality within ourselves which we then impose/project upon actual physical reality

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that a point is a point – where the smallest to the biggest reaction counts and is completely relevant to me as the process I walk – and thus I require to look at each and every single point within the realisation that as long as I react – no matter what the nature of the reaction is – I am still not being the directive principle in my life and thus need to ensure that I cover EACH and EVERY SINGLE POINT

When and as I see myself reacting to a reaction (LOL!) within judgment/belief/opinion as ‘Ooh this is a cool/relevant point to work on’ or alternatively, simple dismissal – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am participating in judgment towards my reality and within that trying to make it ‘more than’ it really is within wanting to personalize my experience/perception of reality and within that I commit myself to breathe, be here as my human physical body and see reality/my points for what they are

When and as I see myself judging points as reactions/experiences as ‘important’/’not important’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that each and every single point is equally relevant and within that I commit myself to work through each and every single point

When and as I see myself judging/creating opinions about points based on the criteria of whether I find it ‘deep’/’interesting’ or ‘dull’/’ordinary’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am just participating in an another mindfuck where I believe that since I am busy with my process/working through points – that I by default am doing it in a way which is self-directive and within that not seeing/realising the true extent that we’ve fucked ourselves into creating an opinion about every single thing in existence which also includes process/working through points – and so I commit myself to slow myself down within myself when working/reflecting on points to ensure that I am not allowing myself to be directed by opinion as ‘likes’ and ‘dislikes’ as ‘positive’ / ‘negative’ experience/opinions about points – and within that allow myself to be here, breathe and work with what is here without creating an idea about it

When and as I see myself scanning through my day to identify a point to work with and see myself ‘skipping’ over points because I have judged them as ‘dull’/’ordinary’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that these points are very relevant since they indicate the extent that I am accepting and allowing them within ‘skipping’ them in my evaluation of the day and so I commit myself to take on each and every single point no matter how ‘dull’ or ‘ordinary’ they seem to be as these are actually the “secret” points keeping me as personality in place which is indicated by my level of acceptance within seeing them as ‘normal’ / ‘not worthwhile looking at’

I commit myself to walk each and every single point since all are relevant and form part of the intricate whole/network of characters keeping me as an “individual” in place

I commit myself to assist myself in becoming aware of the extent of mind integration/influence within my everyday life through listening to the Quantum Mind series which very delicately, intricately – step by step – explain and describe how the Quantum Mind works in utmost specificity and thus it is within my best interest to listen to these interviews and educate myself on the REAL ME that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see as the REAL DIRECTIVE PRINCIPLE currently in my reality so that I can teach myself to become just as diligent and specific as my mind within correcting myself and walking my Journey to Life

I commit myself to assist and support myself within reading the Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs which every day provide a new dimension / insight which I had not yet considered for myself and within that assist and support myself to get to know myself better as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as Mind so that I can equally assist and support myself in walking my Journey to Life

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Day 31: Fear of Speaking - Part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear saying something which I perceive is 'against the grain' of what another is saying or doing -- within the fear that they will 'come back at me' and that I will not know how to respond -- and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that within the moment of not being able to respond -- that I will be seen as small, weak and an 'embarrassment' as I am unable to 'back up' my statement and within that be seen as 'invalid' -- and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience of being reduced to 'nothing'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to respond to a person's reply -- and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I find myself unable to formulate or come up with a response that this means that what I had to say is invalid and that this somehow means that my entire beingness/existence is invalidated

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will be seen as an embarrassment within the moment that I find myself unable to formulate a reply -- and within this I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that I am the one deciding to be an embarrassment for myself because I am the one who decided and put in place the conditions which make something/someone an 'embarrassment' in my eyes -- and so I've made myself an embarrassment to myself by my own accord

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that it has never been ‘about the other’ and ‘how the other might see me’ as I have only ever projected my own beliefs/ideas/fears/perceptions/opinions upon myself within any given circumstance and so it is all about me and how I have to deconstruct my own thought / belief patterns and purify my vocabulary to be able to free myself from my own prison as the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined ‘not being able to respond’ / ‘substantiate your claim’ as ‘being weak’ and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a chain between ‘not being able to respond’ / ‘substantiating one’s claim’, the point of ‘weakness’ and ‘embarrassment’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust and rely on the past as memories to direct me and tell me what to do and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have submitted myself to believe that the past is bound to be repeated and that I am unable to change myself and my patterns

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to re-create the same memories over and over again through relying on the past as memories for my direction instead of me being here as breath directing myself within every moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a connection between ‘not being able to respond to someone’ and ‘weakness/embarrassment’ within and through memory where as a small child someone got really angry at me for something I did/said where I went into a complete mode of petrification and did not know how to respond to what was being said and where I peed my pants because of the amount of fear I was experiencing and not knowing how to deal with the situation

Will walk the specific memory which opened up within my next blog

Day 19 – Power-less – Anger and Me – Part 4

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined ‘Anger’ as ‘Power’ and ‘dominance/superiority’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have connected the experience of “anger” with power due to the high energy levels surging through the body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have connected the experience of high energy levels within the body as “power” – instead of seeing and realising that this is not real power as it is merely an indication that the mind has taken over completely -- and thus actually quite the opposite, as I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave to energy with no directive principle whatsoever

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that being and becoming angry – is in fact the very statement of Powerlessness, Submission and Inferiority

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that within me becoming / being angry at something / someone – I am in fact stating and showing that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself as ‘less than’ and ‘inferior’ to the point I am angry at – where I try and compensate/make up for what I experience within myself by going into the opposite polarity as anger – where I will allow myself to for a moment experience ‘power’ and being ‘more than’ – which ends up only deepening and further ingraining feelings if powerlessness and inferiority

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that when I burst out in anger and feel powerful – that this is only so because I within that moment felt pushed within the deepest corner of feelings of being ‘less than’ and ‘inferiority’ – and where I then bounced all the way to the opposite polarity of being angry/enraged within the momentary experience of “no, I don’t want this anymore – I’ve had enough!!”  -- but where I project this statement/experience to the outside world / external factors – as if it is the outside world / others who are to blame for my experience – while in fact I should be telling myself STOP! And ENOUGH! – as I am the creator of my own inner hell

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that I am the creator of my own inner hell – and that if I do not like this experience, then there is no point getting angry at others / other things within my world as it is no way related to them / those points – but what I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as me as my own created, self-imposed inner hell

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that when I react within anger towards something or someone  -- such as for example the perception that my horse is pushing me around – that this is in fact me reacting to me allowing myself to be pushed around by myself as the mind as self-limitation and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exert / take out my anger at myself towards my horse within the belief that it is the horse ‘pushing me around’ while it me accepting and allowing myself to be pushed around by my mind within myself – but where I instead place the point of responsibility within/upon the horse where I will demand the horse to change and not me as I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the point at which I am being angry at not taking responsibility for within an attempt to maintain my self-definition as personality to not have to change

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise – that whenever I react within anger towards something or someone – it is always ME – and never the other and that this is a sign that I must take SELF-Responsibility for myself within myself

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that if I react within anger towards something/someone I am in fact stating that I am ‘less than’ and ‘inferior’ to the point which I am angry at – where I get angry because I have already made the decision within myself through acceptance and allowance that I cannot change this point and thus I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for and within myself as self-imposed limitation and trust that I can change -- and realise and apply the realisation that I do not have to remain within my self-imposed limitation and feelings of inferiority

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others / points / factors outside of myself for how I experience myself – instead of seeing and realising that I am the creator of my own experience and that I do not have to accept and allow this bullshit inside myself

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that reacting in anger is in fact a defense mechanism of and as the mind to protect itself as self-imposed limitation as personality as who I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as – where when I get reminded of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined/limited as – I get angry and blame others/the world instead of seeing and realising that it is I, ME who created this idea/belief/definition/personality of myself and that there is no reason / that I have no right to become angry but at myself as I placed myself in this position through acceptance and allowance

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that bouncing from one polarity to another as ‘inferiority’/’powerlessness’ to ‘anger’/’power’  -- is not a solution but only an artificial form of “change” where I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I experience ‘something else’ that this means that I have ‘changed’ – while all I am doing is flipping the coin and still participate within the exact same construct/system

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that if I want to change this pattern/construct it is a matter of going beyond it – erasing it – and rescripting myself completely and live according to this new script within the context of what is Best for All to have Actual Change manifested – and not to simply loop from one polarity to another as this only further deepens and ingrains the pattern with every loop

When and as I see myself going into a reaction of anger – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise the polarity construct I am participating within and that it has no benefit/use to continue this participation – So instead I stop, take a deep breath and bring the point back to myself and move myself to identify the origin of the pattern and apply Self Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Statements to correct the point within myself

When and as I see myself going into a reaction of anger and feeling “powerful” – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am participating within a mindfuck and that I am actually experiencing myself as ‘powerless’ – and thus I move and direct myself to identify where within myself and my world I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined myself as powerless and move through the appropriate Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective statements in order to release myself from this self-limitation – and within that – I commit myself to identify and trace back all my anger points to all the various points/aspects within myself which I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from – so that I can embrace myself as these points and direct them as myself, take responsibility and release myself from this self-imposed limitations as personality

When and as I see myself accessing back chat about another / points within my world – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that this back chat is only revealing my relationship with myself and where I still require to give attention to changing / transforming my self-relationship in alignment with what is Best for All – and within this I commit myself to stop all back chat as this is deliberate abuse as abdication of self-responsibility within the defense of personality -- and to bring all back chat points back to myself, sort them out through Self-Forgiveness , Self Corrective Statements and Actions – so there may be no more

When and as I see myself accessing energy as anger – I stop and I breathe – I do not accept and allow myself to further participate within this energy and/or act upon this energy as this is self-deception as the ego trying to divert attention from itself and its limited design – and thus I look at where and how I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within self-limitation and move myself to correct this point within myself instead of throwing a tantrum lol