I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear angry people
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to let past memories ingrain fear of angry people within and as
me – where I did not know and did not understand why someone would get angry at
me and took their reaction personal
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to within the moment of the person getting angry with me, have
taken it personal – in the belief that I was the cause/reason why the person
was angry – where I now see/realize/understand that just as I am responsible
for my reactions of anger – the person in question was also responsible for
their own reaction of anger – and had in fact nothing to do with me as a being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to within the moment of the person getting angry at me and
shouting/ lashing out – have gone into complete fear and petrification where I
froze completely within and as my physical human body as I thought that the end
was upon me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear angry people as I fear them doing something unto me
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to question the reaction of anger the person went into – as my
non-responsiveness implies that I thought this kind of behavior was ‘okay’/’acceptable’
within the belief that I must have had
done something wrong – and that this was the consequence of having done
something wrong
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to have gone within complete fear and petrification when the
person lashed out on me within anger – and where this became my main response mechanism
to any other later event relating to anger – where I would simply stand frozen
and wait it out, then run to my room and cry
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to believe that I cannot deal with anger
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to have created the belief within myself that I cannot deal with
anger – as I did not as a child have the vocabulary to communicate with the
person being angry at me – where I wanted to say/express something but just
couldn’t find any words – and then defined myself according to this experience,
as the experience of being ‘powerless’ and ‘helpless’ and then within all subsequent
events related to anger – would access the same experience inside myself, where
I basically each time would loop through my very first memory again – reliving the
exact same pattern without looking at how I could do it differently
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself within the moment of the person being angry at me / lashing out
on me – have only looked at the emotional aspect of what was happening within
the event and did not really look at the words spoken by the being and whether
or not the being was making sense – and within that I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to in turn respond to this within emotion
instead of common sense
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to have placed value within emotions and see them as a valid
part of life – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to consider emotions to be a valid component within conversations which
must be considered and valued, where I completely disregard what is being said
and whether it does or doesn’t make sense as I’ve accepted and allowed emotions
to override all logic as common sense
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see and realize that emotions are not a valid part of life
and not a valid component of conversations and within that I forgive myself
that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to discard any emotions within
conversations/arguments and only look at the words spoken and in turn respond
to these words within common sense practicality
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to take it personal when people get angry at me – instead of
seeing and realizing that one can only be angry at self – and that I am thus
only serving as a mirror for the other person within that particular moment
where they saw something within me which reminded them of themselves which they
had not yet sorted out – and then triggered anger as a reaction
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that I am only able to respond to the emotions of others with
emotions of my own
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to believe that I am powerless in the face of strong emotional
outbursts
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see and realize that I can only give emotions authority over
me if I place myself within that position of powerlessness as I am in fact in
that moment giving permission for these emotions to influence and control me
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to see and realize that I do not have to react when others are reacting/being emotional – and that
this in fact a decision I make for myself within myself – and thus I can also
decide to not play this game and STOP within myself – and within this not feed
/ confirm the other person’s emotional outburst
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to trust myself to be able to handle conflict situations within
a common sense approach
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to when faced with moments of conflict and friction anticipate
and expect fear, anxiety, petrification and lock-down mode within myself –
instead of accepting and allowing myself to trust myself to direct myself
within common sense practicality and not be swept away by the wave of emotions
When and as I am faced with another person
being angry and responding to this within emotions as fear, petrification,
anxiety and “lock-down” mode – I stop and I breathe – I see and realize that
this is not the only way to respond to a situation like this and that I can
decide for myself how I would like to walk through this experience – where I
either allow emotions to direct myself and the event or step up and use
practical common sense to direct the event
When and as I am faced with another person being
angry and taking it personal – I stop and I breathe – I see and realize that it
is not personal and that the person within that particular moment is taking out
their own inner-frustrations on me – where they are dealing with a point in relation
to themselves which I happened to trigger – but where this is no way means that
I am the “cause” or “reason” why they are angry as I have already seen and realized within myself
that one can only be angry at oneself for accepting and allowing dishonesty to
exist within
When and as I am faced with another being angry
and going into emotions and feelings – I stop and I breathe – I see / realize /
understand that there is no point within going into emotions and feelings as a
response to another’s emotional outburst as this only feeds their experience –
instead I look at the words spoken and reflect the person’s words back to
themselves to assist and support the other in seeing what has been accepted and allowed within self
When and as I am faced with an angry person and
going into feelings of doubt and distrust – I stop and I breathe – I see and realize
that I am the creator of my own inner experience and thus I direct myself
within this realization/understanding to stop this inner self-doubt and allow myself
to trust myself within breath to do what is best for all
I commit myself to changing the current educational system and parental support system in a way where emotions and feelings are
explained from the start – so humans may be aware of how they operate and be
more aware of how one’s own behavior towards others reflects only one’s
relationship towards self
I commit myself to the re-education of human
beings on Earth so they may in fact become responsible parents and teachers
within this world who support and assist the children in understanding how
reality works and within that empowering them and giving them the tools to work
with their own inner reality so that they don’t have to go through a lifetime
of confusion and abuse to then only after death realize what happened and how
it happened within one’s Life Review
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Thanks Leila.
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