who I am' as 'who I believe myself to be' as my 'identity' or 'personality' if you like.
I looked at how I would define myself in terms of my self-identity as
all the things that I like and dislike, and the things I am good and not good
at (where I was specifically looking at it from the perspective of who I
was a few years ago, as it was then more prominent/clear).
So, I would for instance note that, I like music, I like watching
movies, I like going out to concerts, I like reading, I like wearing
particular style of clothing, I was into art/graphics, ...
Then I looked at, okay -- where do these points come from? And I saw
that they mostly originated from either my family surrounding and/or
Reading was encouraged at home, my brother and sister listened to the
music I liked, my clothing I copied from my school/friends...
If I had been born in a a different family, a different environment --
would I still have been the same person? Would I still like the same
things? Would I still be good and interested in the same things?
So then, looking at the points that we usually look at when we look at
'who we are' and 'what defines us' -- these points become pretty irrelevant, because they are purely coincidental.
If I had been a feral child, growing up with wolves -- would I like the
same music if I heard it? No -- because it wasn't part of my upbringing,
it wasn't part of my environment. So, when I say "I like this and that
music" -- what does this really mean, because I've just established that
this 'like' is purely coincidental, in terms of being related to where I
was brought up ( which is coincidental, you don't know where you're
going to end up being born). I can't really say that "I" like this
music, as it being an inherent part of 'who I am', because it could have
easily been otherwise - so it's not valid. So is it then of any value,
is it of any relevance? Yet, I will judge
people and form opinions about them based on what music they like, what
clothes they wear, etc. -- which isn't really fair, considering that
'who they are' as a personality and their personal identity is also just
the product of their environment.
So who am I? What makes me, me? What's the purpose of Life if not
following my personality which I've built up / accumulated throughout my
To be continued...