SF using bible

Some Self Forgiveness i started doing by using the Bible - there is good self forgiveness material in the bible, trust me lol will post more when i have more

Here it goes
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the part where God wants to create humans to rule over the entire earth and all animals and plants, etc.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it was our purpose to rule over this earth and everything on it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that human beings are different from all other beings because somehow they have this special right that says they can rule the earth and all other beings on it - simply because we are humans
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question what human beings do on this earth because it was said in the bible that we are here to rule over the earth and everything on it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe everything that was being said in the bible because apparently everyone in my environment agreed that this was the “truth”.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my belief of the bible being the truth as a justification of what I and all other human beings do on earth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question what human beings do because I believed what was written in the bible and I believed: this is our purpose, so we can’t do anything wrong
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that human beings were made to do what they’re doing now, without questioning it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that human beings have the right to do whatever they want with earth and animals, because god created us to rule over them - so it must be ok.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the bible influence, control and program me to accept and allow what happens in this world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the bible as a justification of what is going on in this world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what is going on in this world is OK cause it is God’s will
I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to maybe consider that we are all responsible for what is happening in this world - but instead placed the responsibility in God and God can do nothing wrong
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that God can do nothing wrong
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that God is an evil bastard cause his “will” sucks bigtime.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge God for what is going on in this world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame god for the state of this world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at god but at same time not take self responsibility cause it’s all God’s fault
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a kid blindly believe in the bible and god
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a kid take the bible and god as my truth of what is real
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the purpose of human beings is to rule the earth and mutliply as much as possible - because God said so in the Bible
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that all and everything must submit to human beings because god said so in the bible
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define myself as being inferior to men because apparently God first created man and then created woman
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define myself as being superior towards men if god would have had created a woman first
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to Gods “actions”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I as a woman/girl should be submissive towards men because God created man first.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because apparently God created man first, a man has more worth and value according to my mindI forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be fascinated by the tree of knowledge / the tree of good and bad.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am Eve and that I have to be punished for eating from the tree of knowledge and giving it to adam
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do that whichever I’m not allowed to do
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be occupied and obsessed by “forbidden” things - only because it is forbidden
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to do the opposite of what people tell me to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it was bad that Eve ate from the apple
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as Eve for eating from the forbidden fruit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that eve as me should be judged
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what eve did was WRONG
I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to question the creation story from the bible
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the creation story from the bible for granted.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define myself as always having to owe something to men because Eve was created from Adam’s rib
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I owe man or anyone for that matter anything
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to behave as if I will always owe something to men
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as less than men
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is only natural that men are dominant - that it’s their right to be dominant and that women should be submissive because thats why women are here for - so that men wouldn’t be alone, a woman’s purpose being “man”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to believe that I am only here because men exist
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if there were no men there wouldn’t be need for women
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there must first be a “need” in order for something to be here
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I owe my existence to men
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I should always be grateful towards men
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am here because men wanted a little helper (hulpje in dutch) / maidservant.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my purpose is to be maidservant for men
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I actually have a purpose
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise and live the realisation that I do not need a purpose to be here - I am here and that’s it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that knowledge can open ones eyes
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that knowledge is entirely useless if not applied
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as Eve to blame the snake for me as Eve eating from the apple
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it is ok to put self responsibility in someone else cus thats what Eve did with the snake
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is only natural to blame another one that it is ok - cause thats what happens in the Adam and Eve story
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I as Eve deserve to experience pain while having periods because I as Eve gave the forbidden fruit to adam - so me as Eve deserves to be punished
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i should live for men because that is my punishment for giving the apple to adam
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let men rule over me because that is the punishment god gave me for giving adam the apple
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that women are to blame for the state of this existence
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is normal that a woman experiences massive pain in childbearing because that is the punishment God gave women because me as Eve gave apple to adam
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to let men rule over me because I accept this as the consequence of me as Eve giving the apple to Adam
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pity for Adam because I believe it is all my fault as Eve.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider “men ruling over women” as a fact - that this is the way it is - there cannot be done anything about it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define “men ruling over women” as normal and the way it should be - cause that’s the way it’s been.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the anger that is coming from God - because it’s not really reasonable
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear angry beings because they don’t really know what they’re doing
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear beings that are so angry that they go out of control
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare the God from the genesis story to my dad and fear him as I fear my dad
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear words that I perceive to be angry
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as Eve for “bringing forth a man with the help of god” because God had nothing to do with it - he even made sure the birth would be painful
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge me as Eve for blindly believing that God is Good
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as for for my/her ignorance
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as Adam, Eve, Cain and Abel for being stupid fucks and mongols cause they give in to their desires and their jealousy
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for giving in to desires
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for giving in to temptation
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when doing something I shouldnt - while I should just correct myelf instead of judging myself and looping myself into a mindfuick
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to somewhat admire Cain’s freedom of being able to just kill someone without having to worry about the law and stuff like that
I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself wanting to kill one of my siblings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get dragged into survival skills between me and my siblings
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself and my siblings out of “self” interest
I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to realise that what is best for me is best for all - “self” interest is not best for me and not ebst for all
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to my siblings and then judge myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to keep up with my siblings and if able - defeat them
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight for attention from my parents - wanting to be their one child that gets most attention
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with my siblings to have most attention of my parents
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be kind of jealous of Cain for being able to kill Abel - because i wouldn’t have the guts to do that - only in my head I would think about itI forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to embrace the killer in me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire wanting to kill someone
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to kill someone to know how it feels like
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be curious about the experience of killing someone
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wonder what it would feel like to kill someone
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to know what it feels like to know u can kill a being in one second by slitting their throat
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be curious about the power ones could experience while being in the position of perfectly being able to a kill a person - just like that
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to experience the sensational power of killing someone
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to experience the sensational power of taking someones life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to admire people that have the guts to actually kill someone
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to experience the release I perceive killers get the moment their victim dies
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that killing someone can generate a release that u cannot get by doing anything else
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that killing is cool cause it seems cool in movies lol
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tune my perception of things according to movies, advertisment and media
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf wanting to know what it feels like to fire a gun
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to know what it feels like to shoot bullets through someones body
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to experience the firign of a gun in my hand - through my entire body
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to believe that shooting a gun should also generate some release
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to gather lots of power and fill msyelf up with it till I almost explode - to then totally get out of control - just to experience some kind of release inside me
I forgive myself that I haven’ t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I actually don’t know what power is
But it makes me think of candyLol
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be curious about the experience of sllitting someones throat and let the warm blood flow over my hands
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that killing is normal because it’s one of the first things that happens in the bible
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept “killing” as a part of my nature - it was done in the bible so it must be so right?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept everything blindly that has been written in the bible - if the bible says that, that is the way it is - then it must be so
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the bible had a big fucking influence on me although me as my mind would like to deny that

SF: pain-alive

SF: pain-alive
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about getting me periods while on the plane to SA.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the pain I might get during me periods while being on the plane to SA
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect that the pains will be unbearable
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that by expecting, I am creating
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to to stop worrying
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine in what kind of miserable state I could be arriving in SA.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect that I will have great pains
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to trust myself that I will be OK, I BREATHE THROUGH IT
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will have my periods on plane to SA
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to script having my periods on plane to sa with massive pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a slave to pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a slave to pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I feel pain to remember that I am alive.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain means alive
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life as pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that life means pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that life means suffering
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is here to remember myself how precious life is
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is here to remember myself to the "value of life"
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is here to remember myself to not take life for granted
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire getting sick or experience pain when I perceived my life to be boring
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish getting sick because I believed my life was boring and I had nothing to do and I believed that getting sick might "spice" things up a bit
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret my wish of getting sick when I actually got sick, shortly after pondering about wanting to get sick - lol
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allwoed myself to believe that pain is here to make me aware of the moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need pain to be aware of the moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is here to make me aware that I am HERE
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need pain to make me aware that I am HERE
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when feeling extensive pain to just Be pain and nothing else and surender myself to the pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bow down to pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept pain as something greater than me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is nothing I can do about pain but do nothing and wait
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain as "unlimited" grip over me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is something bigger than me
i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am nothing towards pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am nothing compared to pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is immense and overwhelming and that I just have to experience it and that there is nothing I can do but experience this pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am inferior to pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is superior to me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to picture this image of me being all little and pain being this immense huge demon, on fire, burning
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is unstoppable
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the role of slave to pain because apparently this is the only thing I can do
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will never be able to "start something against" pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to completely surrender myself to pain and just do nothing and have pity with myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use pain as a justification for not taking self responsibility
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take all and everything as justification for not taking self responsibility
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is actually able to limit me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to let pain limit me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain in itself can limit me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide behind pain so I apparently do not have to take self responsibility
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when being in pain - it is impossible to take self responsibility
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there are "cases" when you cannot possibly take self responsibility
what bullshit crap lol
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that not taking self responsibility because of pain is actually a good excuse
i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is such a thing as "good excuses"
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is such a thing as "bad excuses"
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that an excuse is an excuse, and an apparent "good" excuse doesnt make things suddenly seem OK
All excuses are worthless dishonest shit anyway
ALL EXCUSES ARE CRAP
got that Leila lol
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain and life go hand by hand
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there can only be life if there is pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that feeling pain means being alive
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that experiencing pain implies "being alive"
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave to pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be "grateful" for pain because it apparently remembers me how it feels to be alive
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the almost constant experience pain within me - without questioning it - believing it is a part of me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define pain as a part of "who I am"
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is a part of "who I am"
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that pain is but an illusion
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is real
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should experience pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is only natural to experience pain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make pain real
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is here to make me remember I am here
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pain is here to confirm my existence
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need pain to confirm that I am here
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need anything or anyone to confirm that I actually exist
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need anything or anyone to confirm that I am actually HERE
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am totally dependent on all things outside of myself to confirm to me that I indeed actually exist
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am totally dependent on all things outside of myself to confirm to me that I am indeed HERE
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that I do not need confirmation from anything or anyone outside of myself - I am here - and that's it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for confirmation outside of myself to confirm and validate my existence
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if something or someone outside of myself doesnt confirm I exist, or I am here, I am not here, I do not exist
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that it is bullshit to expect from others to confirm my existence - i am here - I cut this crap

SF : HOPE

HOPE

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that hope is the manifested design inside human beings, inside me, to not act en take responsibility for my own world, my own reality

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that I alone am responsible for my own world, for my own experience of my world, that I am responsible for myself

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that 'hope' is an illusion, an idea, a belief

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that hope manifests the creation of a "superior source" separate from myself, because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to take self responsibility for myself, to act and stand up for myself

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that I indeed am alone and always will be, and there is only me to take self responsibility for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope, and withing participating in hope, give my power away to some "separate source" outside of myself, just sitting and waiting for stuff to move - instead of me moving me, me directing me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that some "separate source" outside of myself will take care of me and support me, and do for me what I am apparently unable to do for myself

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that 'hope' is the illusion of 'support' - me placing support, faith and trust in an "outside superior source", in anything BUT myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that hope destroys me

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself that hope destroys everything of me because I just sit and hope

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that as long as hope exists within and as me - I will not take full self responsibility for me and my world

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that if I require anything to actually happen in my world, I have to stand up and direct MYSELF because nothing else will support me.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to stop waiting and stand up and take self responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'hope'

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that hope is of waiting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait instead of act and take self responsibility for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my responsibility of self in 'hope'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that hoping might sort things out for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait instead of taking responsibility for myself, acting, and standing up in creating and manifesting my own world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking responsibility for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed 'uncertainty' to dictate who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have 'fear of taking responsibility for myself' dictate who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give 'hope' power over me instead of me taking my own power and standing up and taking responsibility for myself in directing my own world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear directing my own world through 'fear of failure', through 'fear of making a mistake' - and therefore, rather place my 'trsut ad faith' in 'hope and waiting' than rather actually standing up and oing to for myself as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a mistake, and instead of actually standing up, directing myself, manifesting and creating my own world - I 'hope'

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself by placing 'hope' in something separate than me than actually acting and standing up and taking self responsibility for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself before I've even started - and therefore, instead of just starting, acting, standing up, directing my own world, I'd sit back, 'wait' and 'hope'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge in the act of 'waiting'

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to in every moment stand up and take responsibility and direct my own world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'give up' before i have even started, through 'fear of failure', through 'fear of making a mistake' - and in that, rather sitting back hoping and waiting - thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of walking through the 'wanting to give up', walking through the 'fear of making a mistake or failure', that I had allowed myself to indulge in 'hope' and 'waiting'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the illusion of 'hope'

I forgive myself that I haven't accetped and allowed myself to trust myself - instead of trusting myself, i placed my self trust in a 'superior source' separate from me

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that if I do not stand up, direct myself, and direct my world; NOTHING will happen and I will wait for the reminder of my life

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that there exists nothing outside me separate of me, and that I have placed my 'hope' into that which DOES NOT EVEN EXIST

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself in the belief of 'hope'

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that I have to direct myself, i have to stand up within myself asmyself, that I have to take responsibility for me and stand up withing me as me and direct my world because there is no one else that will do it for me

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to question 'hope'

SF birth Chart Pt. I

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed according to the sign “Libra”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my astrological sign, being Libra

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself be programmed according to positions of the stars

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to know my preprogrammed life so I could make sure I would walk it perfectly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to give in to my preprogrammed life, not wanting to take self responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that pre programmed lives are great, cause then I have no self responsibility

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself while studying astrology, to consider self direction, no I was too busy figuring out the way I should live according to the starts, as less responsibility as possible thank you please

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to shove my self responsibility unto the stars

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is cool to have a preprogrammed life, cause then there’s nothing “wrong” you can do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for ever being so blind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to approve of society’s values

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to be level-headed and to assimilate quickly
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a great need to be part of a group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to have a great need to be part of a group

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to blame the program for this is while I accepted and allowed it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like to mix with people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like having friends from about everywhere lol

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for partnerships

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for friends and create friendships because maybe, who knows, THIS person can help me get a PARTNER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse and manipulate other beings for my own “self” interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like and respect justice

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to like and respect justice

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do self forgiveness on things that my mind defines as being useless as I dont recognize myself in this
Whatever

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think “wtf” when reading that not thinking enough is a weakness lol

I forgive myself that I havea ccepted and allowed myself to be programmed to be frivolous

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed as a “dilettante in love”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to be easily swayed by group pressure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be easily swayed by group pressure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that group pressure is directing me while I direct me always, sometimes by the mind, but hey, it’s always MY SELF RESPONSIBILITY

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do things I do not even want to do but do it because else everyone might laugh at me and I fear the experience of me when people are laughing at me

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stand up for myself and say NO to a group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am inferior towards a group of people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should do whatever the majority says I have to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being humiliated infront of a group because I fear the experience of me while being humiliated infront of a group

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to stand up for myself to a group but never did because of fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that “fear” is an acceptable excuse


NOT




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to want to work in the medical environment and progress

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to not have much social ambition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to characterized by me not having much social ambition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use “I dont have much social ambition” as an excuse to not have to interact with people when i’m actually just scared of people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people because I do not know how they might react/respond to me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dislike surprises

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want everything under control - MY control

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy and like public life for the wrong reasons/startingpoints

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like public life so I can feel accepted and appreciated, so that everyone may see that I am accepted and appreciated so they better do the same hahaha

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to have lots of vitality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make attempts to make myself more popular cus that seemed like the thing to do at school

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk crap so I would be popular

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create different personality suites that I could wear so I would be able to get along with as much people as possible, so I could feel like I was accepted and appreciated, so that I could fool myself and tell myself: look how many friends you have, see, now you’re “happy”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to get along with my parents

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to be intelligent

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being “intelligent”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself present myself as being the “intelligent one”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a sponge that sucks up as much information and knowledge possible, to then not do anything with it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to like moving and travelling

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to enjoy literature

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed as being gay

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed as being sociable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed as being welcoming

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to be a lover

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to have many affairs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to be seduced by beauty and charm

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let “beauty” and “charm” affect and influence me

Birth Chart

Birth Chart generated from http://www.astro-software.com/

: http://astro-software.com/cgi-bin/astro/page01?name=Leila&firstname=&birthplace=Brussels&lang=en&sex=f&dformat=1&date=13/10/1990&time=18:0&country=32&state=0&adjust=-1.00&long=-4.20&lat=50.50

Ok now I do SF on this shit lol

SF horse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the horse might bite my hand

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do self forgiveness from the startingpoint of fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to touch the horse and hug it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be scared of horses because they are a big mass of mega strong muscles

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a horse as an animal that might maybe possibly hurt me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the horse is so stupid that it does not know the difference between grass and my hand

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the horse doesn't know the difference between the grass and my hand

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate massive fear once I noticed the horse's head being right next to mine

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate massive fear once I noticed the horse's head being right infront of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the pain that I could maybe possibly experience if maybe the horse would bite me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shut myself from the horse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be "scared" and "intimidated" by the intimacy that the horse seemed to shine out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be intimidated by the idea of experiencing intimacy with another being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start fearing the horse because it was as if the horse could see right through me and knew me all the way

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be impressed by the horse - just standing there all day doing "nothing" telling myself that I would never be able to do such a thing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the horse is superior to me because I believe that I cannot do what a horse can do

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that I am one and equal with the horse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanting to be able to talk to the horse

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to listen to animals because I was too afraid of what I may or may not hear

sf : sf from startingpoint of fear/anxiety/judgement

I I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do self forgiveness from the startingpoint of anxiety/fear/judgement.

I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to realise that by applying self forgiveness from the startingpoint of anxiety/fear/judgement I am actually feeding this construct and not releasing

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that sometimes it is best to just STOP and BREATHE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go in fear and judgement whenever I experience a massive reaction that I believe I cannot contain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my mind as feelings and emotions and reactions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what the mind is able to do with me if only I accept and allow it to happen

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the reacions, emotions and feelings the mind can generate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear massive emotions, reactions and feelings because I believe that I cannot hanle this sort of emotions, feelings and reactions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go in a state of fear and anxiety whenever I notice a big reaction, emotion, feeling boiling up inside me because I fear I cannot handle it and be stuck with it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the mind as the enemy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, perceive and believe the mind to be a fearful enemy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should fear the mind because I can fuick withmyself through the mind by participating within and as the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, perceive and believe the mind to be too vast for me , too much to handle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will never get rid of the mind because it is too massive

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience of me when the mind generates heavy emotions, feelings and reactions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in constant fear of the mind, afraid that it might generate a heavy emotion, reaction, feeling at any moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear heavy, vast emotions, reactions, feelings because I fear that the mind will direct, influence and control me once experiencing heavy emotions, feelings, reactions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the abilities of the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will lose my stability within and as the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can get lost within and as the mind

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realise that I will never stop standing up to the mind, that I will never give up on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will give up on myself, as in applying myself actively in process once heavy feelings, emotions and reactions kick in

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I might give up on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the possibility of me giving up on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the possibility of me giving up on myself once heavy feelings, emotions, reactions start kicking in

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being crushed by the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the mind can crush me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to the mind to crush me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to crush myself by participating within and as the mind, giving it permission, allowing and accepting the mind to do whatever it pleases to do with me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the mind wants to kill me hahaahahahahaha

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear me killing me by participation within and as the mind