Day 108: Compromising Over Fear

This blog is a continuation to:
Day 106: Regret
Day 107: Showing my True Colours

When and as I see myself in a situation where something requires direction and then imagine myself what I would have to do to give it direction and within that react within fear towards the steps involved, and allow this fear to direct me where I 'walk away' from doing what requires to be done from the starting point of fear of facing my fear -- I stop and I breathe -- I see and realise that these fear points are not valid reasons as to why I should not do what needs to be done, and so I commit myself to not allow myself to let fear direct me but commit myself to stand as the directive principle and move myself to act according to principle instead of experience

When and as I see myself in a situation where something needs to be done, and see that there may be certain 'complications' as per my interpretation of things -- and then allow my fear of moving through those points be part of the decision-making equation -- I stop and I breathe -- I see and realise that these fear factors do not belong in a decision-making equation that concerns what is best for all life, as I have seen, realised and understood that emotions and feelings open a door to compromise and abuse within making decisions, and so I commit myself to reassess my priorities and remove the fear factors from the equation and work with what is actually relevant

When and as I see myself in a situation where something requires to be done, but have 'reservations' about this -- where I hesitate and doubt whether I should or shouldn't give it direction, and where I will look at how intense my fear is and how much I care about requires to be done -- I stop and I breathe -- I see and realise that I am working with a dysfunctional value system within myself, where I am valuing self-limitation as fear more than doing what is best for all life -- where I rather hold on to my limited existence of non-change than walking out of my comfort zone and do something real

When and as I see myself in a situation where something requires to be done, and weigh out my fears in relation to the steps I have to take and compare it to the weight of 'how much I care' about what needs to be done -- where this doesn't even necessarily carry any energetic charge, as it's just a seeing that it requires to be done -- and then decide that because my fear is so intense that I should side with that and then walk away and feel a constriction in my chest knowing that I am cheating myself and being a coward by walking away from what needs to be done out of fear of walking through change -- I stop and I breathe -- I see and realise that this experience is here for a reason, and that if my decision has been clear, there would be no such experience present and so I commit myself to stop, retrace my steps and correct myself before it is too late

When and as I see myself in a situation where something require to be done, and see that I may have to explain myself to figures of authority as to why I am doing what I am doing and where they may possibly disagree -- and based on that do not want to commit myself to do what needs to be done -- I stop and I breathe -- I see and realise that I have created an idea about 'authority' as if it something that you can't do anything about, or where it is difficult to get through -- where I've accepted and allowed myself throughout my life to place blind trust within the concept of authority without every questioning if what they stand for is in fact substantial and real and where I've accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as being intimidated and set myself up to simply obey as to not cause any trouble-- and so I commit myself to walk through my fear of dealing with authority and commit myself to investigate the concept of authority within me through self reflective writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements and application, so that I no longer accept and allow myself to compromise myself out of fear but stand by principle

When and as I see myself in a situation where something requires direction, and where I see I might face resistance on what I want to do coming from figures of authority, and then within that immediately want to 'withdraw' myself from the situation where I do not want to do anything and just 'walk away' out of the fear/belief that I will not be confident enough to explain myself and make a fool out of myself and get into trouble -- I stop and I breathe -- I see and realise that a situation like this shows me where I still require to work on myself, in this case 'self-confidence' and so I commit myself to take note of the points I have to work on, but do not allow these points to have a space in my decision-making and instead walk through the fear and gift myself an opportunity to change

When and as I see myself in a situation where something requires direction but let fear override common sense practical consideration and then make myself feel less bad about my decision through employing positive, hopeful thoughts that make what I just did 'seem okay' -- I stop and I breathe -- I see and reaise that those 'positive' and 'cheerful' thoughts reveal the true nature of me as dark and evil, where I am more concerned with maintaining my limited existence of self interest than doing something which is in the best interest of all -- where instead of seeing what I have done and be frank about it with myself, I use positive thoughts to cover up my actions and suppress what little common sense was left in me

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Day 53: I Am Robot

This blog is a continuation to:
Day 51: Shocking Sounds
Day 52: Prelude – Don’t take anything for Granted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the parrot screams within a negative energy charge

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have attached a negative energy charge signature to the sound/hearing of parrot screams

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged parrot scream as ‘bad’ and categorised it within myself as a ‘dislike’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the sound of parrots screaming and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore my reaction and hope that it will just go away by itself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to unconditionally investigate the nature of my reactions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged myself as ‘weak’ for reacting to the sounds of screaming parrots

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a connection/relationship between ‘the sound of screaming parrots’ and ‘fear of conflict’

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to investigate the nature of my reaction towards the parrots screaming – where my reaction had nothing to do with ‘Parrots Screaming’ per se – but with the connections I had created within myself as associations to past memories where similar sounds were present and as such stored within and as me – where within the moment of hearing the parrots screaming/screeching, I as my mind scanned through my life history as all the stored memories I as a personality exist as – and identified memories with similar features – in this case ‘screams’ – where I as my mind connected the screaming/screeching sounds of Parrots to that of my parents screaming – and within that split of a second of hearing the parrots scream: upload the experience inside myself which I used to have when I would hear screaming inside the house and send it all throughout my body, wherein I accepted and allowed myself to believe that this was a ‘new’ experience and an experience purely related to ‘parrots screaming’ – without seeing and realising that there is no such thing as ‘new experiences’ but the recycling of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the sound of screams within fear of conflict where I accepted and allowed myself to have defined ‘screams’ as a ‘bad omen’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined ‘screams’ and the experience of hearing screams as being a ‘bad omen’ – where the moment I make the connection between ‘screams’ and ‘bad omen’ go into anxiety and become edgy because I am expecting something ‘bad’ to happen at any given moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have blamed the parrots within believe that they were the cause / source / origin of my experience of edginess/anxiety – without seeing and realising that I am the cause / source / point of origin within recycling past memories within me and uploading their energetic experiences and pasting these on the current moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within hearing parrots screaming go into anxiety / edginess where I expect ‘bad things’ to happen as ‘fear of conflict’ – where I expect someone lashing out on me at any moment


When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of parrots screaming – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am accessing a pre-programmed response pattern based on memory where in the past I made a connection between ‘screams’ and experiencing a ‘bad vibe’.
Within that I commit myself to breathe, be here as my human physical body, ground myself and let go of the experience

When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of parrots screaming within judgment – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am not in fact judging the parrots screaming at present – but acting within and as memory where I had bad experiences with screams in the past and created a judgment about screams and where I even judge the parrots and their screams for ‘making me feel bad’ within screaming.
Within that I commit myself to breathe, be here and stop my energetic participation

When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of parrots screaming and wanting to ignore/dismiss it – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am deliberately covering up parts of myself that I do not want to change and so I commit myself to look at my reaction and investigate its nature and walk it to its end within Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements/Application

When and as I see myself judging myself as ‘weak’ for reacting to the sound of parrots screaming – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that there is nothing to judge about – all that this point is revealing to me is the mathematical, mechanical precision of the mind within creating connections and associations to the past as memories and pulling these memories up when identifying similarities – and thus there is nothing to judge about in terms of taking my reaction ‘personal’ – since my reaction is simply the outflow of the design of the mind

When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of screaming parrots within accessing ‘fear of conflict’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that my past as memories are not applicable to the present and that what I am experiencing is merely the mind doing its job in following associations and pulling up memory experiences – and so I commit myself to breathe, be here – let go of the memory and be present as the moment so that I may experience what is here and not an interpretation of what is here through the filters of memory

I commit myself to show that any point/reaction one face is nothing more than the mathematical/mechanical outflow of the workings/design of the mind – and thus it is imperative to educate self on the workings of the mind so one can work through points specifically and effectively – and that there is no point creating opinions/ideas about points since your mind is a mere mechanical/mathematical programmed entity which does what it is programmed to do and within that no experience/point is “special” or “dull” but just the outflow/consequence of how the mind works

When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of parrots screaming within accessing the fear of ‘conflict’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am merely accessing past memories and their energetic signatures and imposing them on the present – and so I commit myself to breathe, be here – ground myself and let the fear flow out of my body

When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of parrots screaming within accessing the belief that it is a ‘bad omen’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am accessing associations based on past memories and so I commit myself to stop participating within this belief and ground myself here as my Human physical body within breath

When and as I see myself reacting to the parrots screaming within blame – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am the source / origin / cause of my experience and that there is no point in pointing fingers --- within that I commit myself to take self-responsibility for reaction within stopping my participation within and work through the point within Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements/Application

When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of parrot screams within anxiety/edginess – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that there is no point in generating and participating within these emotions and I commit myself to Stop, Breathe, Be Here within and as the stability of my human physical body

When and as I see myself reacting to the sound of parrots screaming within believing it being a ‘bad omen’ where it will lead to conflict/someone lashing out on me – where this experience comes forth in a subtle form of paranoia – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am NOT here since I am accepting and allowed myself to be moved by triggers where I go into energetic experiences – and so I commit myself to Breathe, be here and move my awareness from my mind to my human physical body and investigate the trigger/pattern revealed to me

Will investigate the specific memory linked to the energetic reaction to parrot screams in next blog

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Day 52: Prelude – Don’t take anything for Granted

This Blog is a continuation to:
Day 51: Shocking Sounds

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created an idea about what is a ‘relevant point’ to work with and ‘what not’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created ideas/opinions/beliefs about points as reactions within myself in relation to my environment where I will judge the reaction/experience I am having as either ‘important’ / ‘not important’ and will accordingly either work or not work on it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created ideas/opinions/beliefs/judgments about points as reactions in relation to my environment based on what I think is ‘important’ / ‘not important’ based on whether I believe this point to be ‘interesting’ or ‘deep’ where if I find the point to not be something ‘insightful’ and apparently “extraordinary” – I will ignore it until I come across a point that I believe fits the category of ‘interesting’/’insightful’ and work with that instead

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have mind-fucked myself to such an extent that I have opinions about everything where I even have opinions about my points which are in itself opinions so it’s like having opinions about opinions which is completely bizarre

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be selective in terms of the points I want to work with based on judgment/ideas/opinions about the points I face throughout my day where if a point ‘stands out’ that I see/perceive as ‘interesting’ I will be motivated to take it on while if during my day I only face points which I deem as ‘ordinary’ / ‘dull’ I will convince myself that I have apparently ‘nothing to write about’ while there’s lots to write about since not a day goes by that I don’t react to something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the points I face throughout my day and only take those points on which I see/perceive as interesting – and within that I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that I’ve accepted and allowed to attach either positive or negative energy charges to points in terms of ‘interesting’ / ‘boring’ – which only reveals to me that I am still allowing myself to within working on myself within process – to still be directed within and as energy as negative/positive energy charges where I will follow the positive and ignore/dismiss the negative

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/understand/grasp the full extent of how completely biased we are within every single thing we do in our reality where literally not a single thing escapes our prejudiced eyes – where everything we see/do gets categorised/boxed within compartments of our minds for us to make apparent ‘sense’ of our reality while all the while only creating/manifesting an illusion of reality within ourselves which we then impose/project upon actual physical reality

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realise that a point is a point – where the smallest to the biggest reaction counts and is completely relevant to me as the process I walk – and thus I require to look at each and every single point within the realisation that as long as I react – no matter what the nature of the reaction is – I am still not being the directive principle in my life and thus need to ensure that I cover EACH and EVERY SINGLE POINT

When and as I see myself reacting to a reaction (LOL!) within judgment/belief/opinion as ‘Ooh this is a cool/relevant point to work on’ or alternatively, simple dismissal – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am participating in judgment towards my reality and within that trying to make it ‘more than’ it really is within wanting to personalize my experience/perception of reality and within that I commit myself to breathe, be here as my human physical body and see reality/my points for what they are

When and as I see myself judging points as reactions/experiences as ‘important’/’not important’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that each and every single point is equally relevant and within that I commit myself to work through each and every single point

When and as I see myself judging/creating opinions about points based on the criteria of whether I find it ‘deep’/’interesting’ or ‘dull’/’ordinary’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am just participating in an another mindfuck where I believe that since I am busy with my process/working through points – that I by default am doing it in a way which is self-directive and within that not seeing/realising the true extent that we’ve fucked ourselves into creating an opinion about every single thing in existence which also includes process/working through points – and so I commit myself to slow myself down within myself when working/reflecting on points to ensure that I am not allowing myself to be directed by opinion as ‘likes’ and ‘dislikes’ as ‘positive’ / ‘negative’ experience/opinions about points – and within that allow myself to be here, breathe and work with what is here without creating an idea about it

When and as I see myself scanning through my day to identify a point to work with and see myself ‘skipping’ over points because I have judged them as ‘dull’/’ordinary’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that these points are very relevant since they indicate the extent that I am accepting and allowing them within ‘skipping’ them in my evaluation of the day and so I commit myself to take on each and every single point no matter how ‘dull’ or ‘ordinary’ they seem to be as these are actually the “secret” points keeping me as personality in place which is indicated by my level of acceptance within seeing them as ‘normal’ / ‘not worthwhile looking at’

I commit myself to walk each and every single point since all are relevant and form part of the intricate whole/network of characters keeping me as an “individual” in place

I commit myself to assist myself in becoming aware of the extent of mind integration/influence within my everyday life through listening to the Quantum Mind series which very delicately, intricately – step by step – explain and describe how the Quantum Mind works in utmost specificity and thus it is within my best interest to listen to these interviews and educate myself on the REAL ME that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see as the REAL DIRECTIVE PRINCIPLE currently in my reality so that I can teach myself to become just as diligent and specific as my mind within correcting myself and walking my Journey to Life

I commit myself to assist and support myself within reading the Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs which every day provide a new dimension / insight which I had not yet considered for myself and within that assist and support myself to get to know myself better as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as Mind so that I can equally assist and support myself in walking my Journey to Life

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