I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to have taken it personal when I walked with the
teacher
to our classroom after I fell and the teacher simply kept silent
throughout our walk – where I accepted and allowed myself have come to
the conclusion that what happened was ‘normal’ and ‘nothing out of the
ordinary’ – and where furthermore I concluded that what happened was
‘just’ in the sense that I had deserved what happened, within the belief
that it was implied by her silence
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have
interpreted the teacher’s silence – within believing that it meant that
‘nothing was wrong’ and that ‘what happened, happened for a reason’
where I accepted and allowed myself to believe this reason to be ‘me’
and as such, there was ‘nothing to say about it’ – and within that I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and
realise that the silence did not imply anything per se – where the
assumptions I made as apparent “implications” were of my own creation,
reflecting my own attitude towards myself back to myself – and so within
taking the
behaviour of the teacher personal, I was in fact only accessing
judgments/beliefs/ideas
already existent within me and projecting them unto the teacher as if
they were in fact emanating from her – while they were not, it was all
coming from myself
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to within
that moment of “pondering” what this silence “might mean” – to stop, and
realise that I am creating something, making something more out of a
situation that what it really is
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always try
and figure out what “the meaning” of things is that happen to me and my
reality
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and
realise that within trying to find out what ‘the meaning’ is of
something, I am in fact separating myself from what happened / is going
on – where I go into a mode of ‘speculating’ what it might mean and then
decide to make whatever speculation ‘suits me best’ a reality for
myself, within deciding that “this happened for that reason” – and so
entertain myself within a separate, ‘customized’ version of reality –
where events have particular meanings and implications and where I
believe those meanings and implications to be true – without
seeing and realising that I made them up in an attempt to never be
here
as this physical reality and deal with what actually goes on within
this World and the atrocity that has become of Life on Earth
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that
taking things personal is normal / the way of Life – where “taking
things personal” is just
human nature and so we shouldn’t really do anything about it because it is ‘who we are’
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ever
question the nature and existence of “taking things personal” – as
“taking things personal” is actually a form of mental disorder as one is
creating and holding on to a distorted version of reality within
oneself, which self holds to be ‘true’ and ‘evident’ – while it is
actually all made up, and where we are okay with everyone doing this
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and
realise that “taking things personal” is not normal, and not acceptable
behaviour – as one is within “taking things personal” removing
themselves from reality, and within doing so, basing their actions and
behaviour on a modified version of reality which is not coherent with
how things work in fact – leading us humans to act in irrational,
destructive ways and justifying it under ‘everyone takes things
personal, it’s just who we are’ – without ever
questioning the implications of such a statement of acceptance and the door to
abuse
it opens towards the real, actual, physical reality which is being
completely disregarded within us only paying attention to our own
‘version’ of things as our judgments, opinions, beliefs, perspectives,
points of view
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have taken
the teacher’s silence personal after the event of me falling after I had
been pushed by someone else, where I believed that the ‘push’ and the
‘fall’ were personal – and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to believe that the boy pushing/shoving me out of the way
‘meant’ something, within the sense of it being ‘personal’ and
‘specifically’ pertaining to me – without seeing and realising that the
actions of the boy weren’t personal – but in fact a statement of
humanity as a whole – where within the action of the boy pushing me to
the ground for the sake of being able to continue playing his game –
causing real physical damage and
pain -- is the result of
education of parents and
society
as a whole as the result of our values and principles, where the boy
within that one singular moment simply revealed that we human beings
value our personal energetic
mind
reality more than the physical reality we all share – where the boy
could have only performed this action if we all agreed that this is
acceptable, otherwise he would not have been taught that such behaviour
is ‘okay’ and ‘acceptable’ and so the action would have never occurred
within his
mind – but it DID – and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have
blamed the boy, and blamed him personally for my experience – instead of seeing and realising that he was merely
demonstrating
our values as humanity as a whole, and as such I cannot blame him, and I
cannot take his actions personal either – as I am both creator and
victim of my own creation as I am part of the whole who decides what is
acceptable and what not – where my own actions which occurred after the
event also clearly indicated that I value personal mind energetic
reality more than the physical reality which we all share within
assuming and taking things personal and victimizing myself – and so
there is no point blaming the boy, as that would just be hypocrisy and
an attempt to shift responsibility away from myself
When and as I see myself observing someone’s behaviour and ‘making something out of it’ within having
thoughts about it – I stop and I
breathe
– I see and realise that I am assigning a value judgment to the
situation and within that altering reality for myself within that moment
– where consequently I lose grip with reality and am no longer able to
make trustworthy decisions – as I have clearly revealed to myself within
my
writing that when I go and ‘interpret’ things – I end up diminishing and
compromising
myself within placing self-limiting beliefs unto myself – and so I
commit myself to stop all thoughts when observing someone’s behaviour so
I may remain here, as this physical reality and not get lost on some
other imaginary plane of existence
When and as I see myself observing someone’s behaviour, and assign a
particular value / meaning to it – I stop and I breathe – I see and
realise that this value / meaning is not coming from the other person
but comes from me – where this value/meaning is not ‘given’ within the
situation, but a decision I make to be what I want it to be – and so I
stop and commit myself to look at what I have revealed to myself within
interpreting someone’s behaviour, apply Self Forgiveness and Self
Corrective Statements as such events indicate to me that there are still
Characters at play which I haven’t considered / addressed properly
before
When and as I see myself ‘pondering’ within ‘trying to figure out the
meaning behind something’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise
that I am participating within creating a mental disorder within
creating alternate versions of reality – where I am distracting myself
from what is actually going on within this physical reality, where I
accepted and allowed myself to assign ‘value’ and ‘meaning’ to reality
as if it really has that meaning in fact, while it just my own personal
made-up meaning, where I end up creating meanings about everything
within my world as ‘opinion’ – where each
time
I am looking at something in the world, I am not really looking at what
it is, but only observing my interpretation of what it is as my
opinion, and so I have locked myself away from reality where it is just
out of reach – literally creating a bubble around myself where
everything I see and experience is actually just myself as my mind as
the opinions I’ve conjured up and imposed on reality – and within that
deny myself access to what is real
I commit myself to show that ‘taking things personal’ is not normal and not okay – as it has disastrous effects within the
acceptance and allowance
of letting people act upon their own version of reality – where
everyone has a different idea about reality which clashes with
everyone’s else’s – resulting in an Earth that gets raped right in front
of our eyes but we won’t do a thing about it as we’re all caught up in
our little mind bubbles as what we think is real – which ends up in the
destruction of what is real in fact
When and as I see myself taking someone’s actions personal and blaming
them for my experience – I stop and I breathe – I allow myself to take a
step back and look at the bigger picture – as within ‘taking things
personal’ I am in fact placing myself in the centre of the
Universe as
if everything revolves around me – while everything that happens does
not revolve around me personally but revolves around everything and
everyone as the result of our collective acceptances and allowances –
and so instead of blaming and taking someone’s actions personal, I take
this point as an opportunity to investigate how I accepted and allowed
such behaviour to manifest within this world which is an indication that
this behaviour lies within me as well – and so I commit myself to
forgive myself for the manifestation of such behaviour and so place
myself within a position of self-responsibility within investigating how
such behaviour came about within our world and deconstructing it within
myself – so I can be a living example that we do not have to accept and
allow this behaviour and set a new standard of what is acceptable and
what is not within this world, so we can start creating a World that is
Best for All
